This is a guest post by Augsburg student, Mina, about her time abroad with CGEE in Mexico and her poem,聽Los Feminicidios. Thank you to Mina, for sharing your experiences with us.聽
On Being Asian-American in Mexico
Mina Himlie, Augsburg class of 鈥�23
I am used to being the only Asian person in the room. I grew up in a small town that is 99 percent white, including my parents. I don鈥檛 have many Asian friends, and even in the Twin Cities I haven鈥檛 made any Chinese American friends. Before the start of my study abroad semester, I didn鈥檛 give much thought to how being Asian would affect me while I was in Mexico because I didn鈥檛 think being surrounded by a different race would be any different from my everyday experiences. Through the Global Twin Cities Scholars program I learned about Mexican culture and realities in terms of immigration. Between the cultural preparation and the completion of my intermediate level Spanish classes, I felt as prepared as I鈥檇 ever be to spend a semester abroad in Mexico. Even so, I was not prepared for the different way that Mexican culture constructs race and racism.
In my time in Cuernavaca, I have not seen many people visibly of Asian descent. I have, however, been asked many times by strangers where I came from. On its own, this is usually an innocuous question. People can usually tell that my friends and I are tourists, whether that鈥檚 from our English, our accents, our clothes, or something else, and they like to make small talk. However, it starts to come across as racist when they don鈥檛 accept 鈥渢he United States鈥� as an answer to their question.
One day I was out with my sister (also Asian) and her boyfriend (white). They were looking at some notebooks, and I was making small talk with the vendor. He asked where we were from, and I replied that we were from the U.S. He shook his head and pointed at my sister鈥檚 boyfriend. 鈥淗e鈥檚 from the United States,鈥� he said in Spanish, 鈥渂ut where are you two from?鈥� This was the most direct anyone has ever been with me about my ethnicity. It also reveals something that we have talked a bit about in classes and discussions with Mexican students from International House: the popular idea in Mexico that only white people are from the U.S.
I could go on with countless other incidents like this one when people have asked, 鈥淲here are you from?鈥� and gotten an unsatisfactory answer, so they proceed to ask, 鈥淲here are your parents from?鈥� and 鈥淲here were you born?鈥� until I answer with an Asian country, but I won鈥檛. It is clear to me that when they ask, 鈥淲here are you from?鈥� what they really want to know is my ethnicity. If it was just once or twice, it wouldn鈥檛 bother me. But it happens a lot here, possibly due to the social construction of race and racism.
One of the first guest speakers my group received was Dr. Raziel Vali帽o. She spoke on the topic of the social construction of race and class in Mexico. Dr. Vali帽o鈥檚 lecture introduced us to a phrase that I鈥檝e heard too many times to be comfortable in the discussion of race: 鈥淩acism doesn鈥檛 exist in Mexico.鈥� She, I , and the rest of my classmates disagree with this sentiment. She explained that because there was a lot of mixing between races in Mexico, the way Mexican culture constructs race is different, and almost everyone is considered 鈥渕estizo鈥� or mixed race. So though it might not appear in the segregated way that it exists in the U.S., racism still shows up through colorism and classism.
Because of this mestizo reality in Mexico, it is not generally considered racist to comment on someone鈥檚 physical, ethnic appearance the way it is in the United States. Despite knowing this, the number of times it has happened makes me feel frustrated and exasperated. Like a microaggression, intentional or not, it builds up.聽
In situations of intercultural communication like this, I feel that the CGEE program does a good job of emphasizing empathy and seeing things from the other culture鈥檚 perspective. What I had to remind myself of is that my perspective matters too, and both things can be true. Those strangers might not be intentionally saying racist things, and they still bother me because I interpreted them as microaggressions. They are allowed to bother me, but I鈥檓 not allowed to go off on someone for saying something. Being in Mexico, or any new cultural environment, requires self-reflection, not just cultural understanding.
Los Feminicidios
By Mina Himlie
In 2019 there were
10 cada d铆a.
Yo no pude encontrar
More recent numbers,
Pero, does that matter?
No matter what
Hay demasiado.
Son un gran problema aqu铆 en M茅xico
But they happen in the U.S. too.
We just don鈥檛 have the language for them
Escrito en nuestras leyes.
The United States
Ha declarado una guerra contra las mujeres
With the draft to repeal Roe v. Wade.
But that鈥檚 just the most obvious declaration of war.
What about las mujeres ind铆genas
Who are 10 times more likely to be disappeared
Or murdered.
鈥淢issing鈥� and murdered indigenous women are not missing.
They are disappeared.
What about las situaciones de violencia dom茅stica?
Las violaciones?
El abuso?
El miedo que sentimos when we walk alone?
Las cosas que hacemos para protegernos聽
Without a second thought:
Keys between our fingers
Llamadas con amigos, reales y falsas
Theorizing escape routes
Mirando la mapa聽
To be sure the Uber driver isn鈥檛 kidnapping you.
All of these things are part of
La guerra contra las mujeres
In both the United States y M茅xico.
Pero en los Estados Unidos and Mexico
We are fighting back.
We take to the streets.
We make our voices heard.
And we demand the right to live.
El futuro es feminino
So fuck the patriarchy,
And do it like a girl.